Sunday, November 15, 2009
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Seattle is to the right of this map. The dotted lines are the ferry routes. Find Bremerton- through a straight and then go North. You'll find Bainbridge.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Sunday, September 27, 2009
"For those who joined the Church outside the United States,
this was a time for gathering to Zion, which meant traveling by
boat to America. Elizabeth and Charles Wood sailed in 1860 from
South Africa, where they had labored several years to acquire
money for their travel. Elizabeth kept house for a wealthy man,
and her husband made bricks until they obtained the needed
funds. Elizabeth was carried aboard the ship on a bed 24 hours
after delivering a son and was given the captain’s berth so she
could be more comfortable. She was very ill during the journey,
almost dying twice, but lived to settle in Fillmore, Utah".
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Saturday, September 12, 2009
And Laman and Lemeul
And Sam and Nephi,
The traveling family
Lehi had a vision
And so he left the city
And all his gold and riches
And lived inside a tent.
But they forgot the plates
So all the boys went back
But Laban wouldn’t share
So Nephi cut his head off.
Sariah wanted grandkids
So all the boys went back
To get the cute girl
And never did complain
One day outside the tent
While they were in the desert
Lehi found a ball
Of curious workmanship.
And stopped when they were bad.
The ball was like a compass
And our 4 standard works
Laman and Lemuel were whiners
But Sam and Nephi were good
They kept the commandments
And did just what they should.
They walked around for 8 years
Until they saw the ocean
Then Nephi built a big ship
To get to the Promised Land
The Promised Land was pretty
But Lehi died soon after
So Nephi became the leader
Of all the cool good kids.
They tried to kill Nephi
Cause he was their younger brother
And ruled over them.
Their plan was unsuccessful
Cause Jesus preserves his people
By warning them of danger
If they follow him.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
What is your conversion story?
Have you thought deeply about your own journey of faith?
What do you believe, and why do you believe it?
If you have not yet begun this journey, what are you waiting for?
If you are not turning to the will of God, what are you turning to instead?
If you are not seeking to live eternally with Heavenly Father and your families, what are you seeking instead?
As we account for our days, it really is true that some things are simply more important than others.
-Stephanie Smith, CIA Executive, recent convert to The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.
Monday, July 27, 2009
YW afternoon mini-reunion.
Not pictured: Ann Braithwaite (leader) Kathy Dixon, Cami, Alex, Karen Snow, Traci Campbell, Sarah Rose, Jodi Wirrick, Audra and Nikki Ross, Jenny Hammon, Rochelle Thompson.
Leslie, Melanie, Amy and Cindy Gustin, were a few years younger. Amy Arenson was in the neighboring ward, and Linda and Annette were leaders.
Rachel, Melanie and I were the only one with out kids.
I was the only one never married.
Tiffany only single mom.
Divorced=Tiffany and Rachel
Those not pictured
Kathy =3 kids
Tracy= 3 I think
Jodi= 4 kids
Total inactive= 5
1. I may not be teaching the juniors and seniors in seminary.
2. Being a zoo keeper is not looking good. The competition is fierce and I don't have any degrees in biology.
3. While I had a fun time at the mid-singles conference, doesn't look like any dates will come of it. I can look around at the men I know and say "nope, not him. Won't be marring him." to at least 10 of them.
But I'm not panicked. I will just keep on keeping on and see what comes about. I did however make some good girl friends, and got a lot of compliments on my hair, how cute I am and 2 compliments from men on what a good person I am and that they feel the spirit around me. Makes me want to be better!
Monday, July 20, 2009
I've already created a shelf of my BOM books to help me, but I can only use church approved curriculum: the teachers seminary guide, the institute manuel and the Ensign. I'll start reading and rereading some of those books. It's been near a year since I have finished the BOM for the umpteenth time. I was so looking forward to studing the Old Testament in Sunday School, but I'll need all week to prepare lessons. I can't image the time it takes to prepare for 5 days!
My oldest sister Beth has taught years of seminary and my brother Mark has also taught. I'm learning that friends Kathy and Marci have taught for 3 years and I already knew that Rebecca and Rohan taught as well.
It will be interesting to see how my schedule creates itself. These are the things I have to do:
- Work 2:30 to 9:00 pm
- Run my dog walking business
- Volunteer at the zoo or the humane society. I'm not so sure I can do both.
I'm not sure how they will get along with out me. I'm really the back bone of these programs, but am also a little burned out. I know I'm also going to have to let go of my internet time. Facebook and blog reading has been taking up a lot of my life.
I really want to do a good job and get these kids in the scriptures the way that Brother Thompson (not Becky Thompson's husband) did. I also have ideas for bullitin boards that are not being used.
But most important I've got to in a better sleep schedule. I've been going to bed past 1 am lately, that won't work with everything else. Here's to teenagers, early mornings and the scriptures!
"In the history of the Church there is no better illustration of the prophetic preparation of this people than the beginnings of the seminary and institute program. These programs were started when they were nice but were not critically needed. They were granted a season to flourish and to grow into a bulwark for the Church. They now become a godsend for the salvation of modern Israel in a most challenging hour. We are now encircled. Our youth are in desperate jeopardy. These are the last days, foreseen by prophets in ancient times”
-Boyd K. Packer, "Teach the Scriptures", address to CES religious educators, Oct. 14, 1977
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Here's my dilemma: I have plenty of men that would receive me, but I don't want them! They are either too smart and weird or lack social skills, or they are too dumb. Really, they are. I know you have to be physically attracted to them. So what do I do? Pray that I can be attracted to them? Settle? I need a connection! Advice and thoughts are welcome.
Monday, July 13, 2009
The reason we went was to see the new penguin exhibit. It has been closed for a few years. The exhibit was great. They did an amazing job on it and I got to talk to the keeper and watch him scratch one 'single' penguin. Penguins mate for life and there is always a few single ones- just like in society. If a single penguin gets to close to a couple penguin one of them gets mad and shews them off. Human's could take a lesson from them possibly save those marriages that are torn apart by cheating.
But the really great news is that I got to hand feed giraffe's. It cost 5 bucks and mom flipped for it. It was so worth it. This giraffe got right in my face and breathed on me. It was smelly! Although the zoo keeper kept warning us to not touch them as he didn't know what could happen, I did touch him. Matt (zoo keeper) said that one time a giraffe in turning his long neck and head knocked into a zoo visitor. That doesn't have anything to do with petting them, but we got the idea. I'm sure it's just a liability thing. I got lots of close up pictures of Mr. Giraffe. But anyway, here's the exciting part...
I talked for Matt about how he became a keeper and if he majored in zoology. No he did not, but something close enough, although I don't remember what. Turns out all you have to do is volunteer for 1 to 2 years, if they like you they will hire you to be an associate, then after 2 years they would hire you as a zoo keeper! Of course you'd have to prove that you really want it, that your good and have them like you. You also have to be willing to move around with in the USA. Matt has worked at 4 different zoo's around the country and has worked with different animals.
I walked away so ecstatic. The 5 dollars was so worth it and I felt like my life plan was taking shape. I for sure have decided to leave care giving and was considering becoming a vet assistant, which paid some what more than I am making. I knew I'd work with animals, I just didn't know when or how it would happen. I already scheduled myself to go to a training to volunteer at the Humane Society just a mile from my home, to help me get more experience. Then this zoo possibility pops up and feels so right. Another woman suggested I get on line and told me who the volunteer head person was. I did just that and found out that the last volunteer mtg till Feb on next year is July 25th! Is that perfect timing or what. I had been feeling this drive to go to the zoo and soon and now I know why. Although the 25th is the Mid-Single adult conference, I will be at this meeting that could change my life. I feel like a way is opening up! A zoo keeper makes 44 thou a year. That is enough for a single person and I love to travel, so I'm OK with moving. I know I wouldn't be bored and I sure would feel good about myself and that I had a career and really was somebody, did something besides glorified babysitting.
Sunday, July 5, 2009
The gospel is everything to me. It's everything I am. It’s how I define myself. As I read the scriptures every night, the pain of my day is swept away. I’m sure of its truthfulness. As in times past the Lord has chosen prophets to lead his work on the earth. Today the prophet is Thomas S. Monson, but it was Joseph Smith who was first called in this time, this dispensation to RESTORE the truth. The reformation was not enough. Confusion still reigned. When I think of the knowledge that Joseph Smith brought back to the world I cannot give it up. I cannot give up that I will see my father who has passed on again. I cannot give up eternal marriage, baptism’s for the dead, revelation, priesthood authority not only in the church but in my home, and especially The Book of Mormon. Every time I read that book the Spirit tells me it is true, the doctrine is true, the people who lived it are real. There is greater joy and peace and knowledge to be had not only in this life, but in the next. Of this I know and bear witness of.
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Last night as I was heading to bed I also realized that another reason I was struggling is because I know I'm going to leave my field of care giving. I'm burned out after 11 years and need a change. I'm the poorest I've ever been this year. I'm worried about being stuck here with my mom being poor the rest of my life. Sometimes I see no real out unless I get married.
I want to be a veterinarian assistant. It pays more, but it's not a good time to change jobs and loose benefits which I need so badly due to the medicine I'm on. There is fear with this change and a few ways I could do it. 1. spend 10 thousand dollars and 6 months going to school through PIMA. 2. Go to a 3 quarter night program through Renton Technical College. 3. Train on the job. I'd like to do # 2 and 3. But the timing must be right. I'm fearful of not being successful with my life, with always trying to make it, to finally get somewhere, of being stuck in this going no where life. Being a wife and mother you know where you are and what your job is and you keep doing it. Marriage is one answer to that fear.
I also realized that I need VALIDATION. Sometimes I have these failure dreams, about random things, but I know what the message is; others being better and me failing. When a person is continually left behind, not chosen and does not have a career, but a job, life doesn't look so promising. A man gives you validation for a weekend and then doesn't call and I feel worthless. Not just because of him, but because of everything that I've blogged reciently. I know that's not healthy, that I should have my own self confidence regardless of what happens in my life and relying on somone else is not heathly for that either. So, what is a girl to do, besides hang on and get through until she gets back up and feels ok again? There you go. I think that's it, but you never know, I may get more insight into this period of my life.
Oh- one more thing. I'm not thinking eternally, but just earth life and with fear and not faith.
Heavenly Father has said to me in a blessing:
I will not let you fail in any way, as long as you continue to work diligentlySuccess is relative.
to live the commandments, to do the things you have been placed here to do.
Friday, June 19, 2009
My coping method is to create stories in my head, stories of having a boy friend, etc. I don't like it. I only do it when I'm in these times. I wonder if Sarah did the same thing? Did she imagine herself pregnant, giving birth, with a baby, a little boy and a man that is a son and an heir to the promises. Maybe it's not such a bad thing after all. When I get a chance to talk with her in the next life, this is what I will ask.
I recently taught seminary 4 days. I was blessed to teach Hebrews 11-13, some of my favorite New Testament scripture generally and my favorite scripture specifically about faith. I taught the juniors and seniors. I broke them up into groups of 3 and gave them a few verses and had them write every example of faith, each one on a sheet of paper. Here are a few examples:
1. Through faith we understand that the worlds were aframed by the bword of God
2. By faith aAbel offered unto God a more excellent bsacrifice than Cain,
3. By faith aEnoch was btranslated that he should not see death (verses 3-5 not in full)
We built a 'wall of faith'. The goal of course is not have have our personal walls of faith broken down by the enemy or penetrated by doubt, fear, or any other tactic of Satan. As one idea says we should present evidences to our mind that we become unshaken. I taught this lesson before my 'difficult time'. I told the kids about my blessings and about my lack of dates. But I also told them that I believed them, that I trust the Lord.
I think one of the main reasons I'm struggling so, is because so many single friends are getting married or have gotten married. I've been to 3 sealings already. There are more to come and some I won't be invited to, but they are none-the-less happening. I'm happy for them, really I am. I know they have waited a long time too, I just don't understand why it's not me. I feel as if this summer and perhaps on will be a trial of my faith. It's a trial I wish I didn't have to go through, but that I want to pass. I'm attending the temple weekly per normal and praying in tears for blessings. But I still wait. To help with this waiting I've created a list of scriptures that I will put in my purse and post on my wall to keep my faith strong like those of ancient times. I don't want to waver for fear my desires will not be fulfilled. You can see by what I've underlined what is important to me. I'm hoping this will get me through. Here is the list:
Through faith also Sara herself received strength to conceive seed, and was delivered of a child when she was past age, because she judged him faithful who had promised. Hebrews 11:11
By faith Abraham, when he was tried offered up Isaac: and he that had received the promises offered up his only begotten son, Hebrews 11:17
Accounting that God was able to raise him up, even from the dead; from whence also he received him in a figure. Hebrews 11:19
These all died in faith, not having received the promises, but having seen them afar off, and were persuaded of them, and embraced them, and confessed that they were strangers and pilgrims on the earth. Hebrews 11: 13
Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us, Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross; Hebrews 12: 1-2
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. Jeremiah 29:11
The eyes of all wait upon thee; and thou givest them their meat in due season. Thou openest thine hand, and satisfiest the desire of every living thing. ....He will fulfill the desire of them that fear him. Psalm 145: 15-16,19
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Both abundance and lack of abundance exist simultaneously in our lives, as parallel realities. It is always our conscious choice which secret garden we will tend . . . when we choose not to focus on what is missing from our lives but are grateful for the abundance that’s present—love, health, family, friends, work, the joys of nature, and personal pursuits that bring us happiness—the wasteland of illusion falls away and we experience heaven on earth.
Sarah Ban Breathnach
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Remember this post? The beauty every day didn't happen, as I knew it wouldn't. But I read this in the June Ensign. The talk is called Our Refined Heavenly Home. Douglas L. Callister said this:
But this is what really got to me: "It is vulgar to wear dirty linen when one is not engaged in dirty work". So, I'm going to put forth effort to do my makeup every day. I've been curling it more. Now it's time for the next step.
What I have shared about bringing great language, literature, and music into the home may be said with equal truth of great art—perhaps tastefully displayed in our heavenly home. It may also be said of our physical appearance and manners, the order of our homes, how we offer our prayers, and how we read God’s word.
I once visited briefly with the great actress Audrey Hepburn while she was making the movie My Fair Lady. She spoke of the opening scene in the movie in which she depicted a modest, unpolished flower girl. Her face had been besmirched with charcoal to make her seem part of her surroundings. “But,” she said with a twinkle in her eye, “I was wearing my perfume. Inside I still knew I was a lady.” It doesn’t take expensive perfume to make a lady, but it does require cleanliness, modesty, self-respect, and pride in one’s appearance.
Many years ago an associate of mine decided he would please his wife by sharing with her a specific compliment each night as he arrived home. One night he praised her cooking. A second night he thanked her for excellence in housekeeping. A third night he acknowledged her fine influence on the children. The fourth night, before he could speak, she said, “I know what you are doing. I thank you for it. But don’t say any of those things. Just tell me you think I am beautiful.”
She expressed an important need she had. Women ought to be praised for all the gifts they possess—including their attentiveness to their personal appearance—that so unselfishly add to the richness of the lives of others. We must not let ourselves go and become so casual—even sloppy—in our appearance that we distance ourselves from the beauty heaven has given us.
Monday, June 8, 2009
Saturday, June 6, 2009
51 Behold, I will liken these kingdoms unto a man having a field, and he sent forth his servants into the field to dig in the field.
The Lord tells those early saints that he is likening them to the kingdom's and inhabitants, to go and ponder upon these things, and to pray unto him while he is near. No keys of understanding are given. It's a strange parable. All I could think the message was is that He comes to everyone, but maybe I was one of the last he would come to. Meaning of course that my desires and wishes would happen, just much latter in the day. As parables have many layers, this maybe what it means for me, but I got out my institute manual and looked it up. It's actually about all the worlds the Lord has created. He goes to one earth, then another and so on. He will come to ours for about 1000 years and then move on to the next. Wow, what a great testimony that he does make more worlds.
My stake president is always telling us to search the scriptures, to feast upon them. That you can't do that at night in bed. That he has yet to take a Thanksgiving dinner to bed, but I have always read my scriptures at night on my bed and I do feast. My 2 sticks are laid out, along with my packet of colored pencils, and a book or two. I usually end up studying for an hour or so and it is study. I often have to make myself stop or I'll stay up too late. Section 88 also has a verse about "seeking Him early"(83). I often wonder if that is not always about the morning, but about our lives. Seek him when you are young, seek him as soon a possible. I did some cross referencing. Deut 4:29-31 and Jer 29:13(10-14) were my favorites of the 4 total. Of course I always read more than the verses suggested. It's easy to do that for me as I love the Old Testament.
Deut 4: 29-31: 29 But if from thence thou shalt aseek the Lord thy God, thou shalt bfind him, if thou seek him with all thy heart and with all thy soul.
Love that. Love the verses before and following it. He is a merciful God who helps in times of tribulation to those who are obedient. He does not forget his covenant!
Jer 29: 11 : For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected aend.
"an expected end." He's going to give us our expected end, weather is the second hour or the 12th. We will get what we want. Although we are so less than he is, so disobedient, so full of the world, so full of the natural man, He doesn't think evil of us. He has thoughts of peace for us. That is so comforting to hear, when I'm in a yucky place. When I feel forgotten. I guess those verses about his qualitites and attributes are suppose to give us confidence in going to him, early or late as the case may be. I find it hard at times to pray to him. I'm feel like I'm begging and for the same things as I begged for for the last 15 years. It seems like It doesn't matter, that his plan for me will take place no matter how hard things are now. Maybe I should just pray for peace, for comfort, for understanding.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Verse 15:That you may come up unto the acrown prepared for you, and be made brulers over many kingdoms, saith the Lord God, the Holy One of Zion, who hath established the foundations of cAdam-ondi-Ahman;
What stood out was the "many kingdoms". Plural- not just one. I cross referenced it which led to Revelations 20: 6. I almost read that whole chapter. Ch 20 is about the Millennium. Satan will be loosed after the 1000 years and shall go forth to deceive the nations (v8). I don't want to be one of those that are deceived. Can you imagine being righteous during those years, doing temple work, having peace and then you don't believe it, being led astray. Sounds terrible to me. Even the very elect will be deceived.
Isa. 45: 4 Israel mine elect, I have even called thee. Matt. 24: 24 (Mark 13: 22; JS-M 1: 22) they shall deceive the very elect.
So what I've decided is I want to die before the melinium. I'll just keep being righteous my whole life and help from the other side. No chances of being deceived. I think it's a good plan!
Last Sunday we sung hymn 137 "Testimony" I love the words to the last verse. It's really true.
As testimony fills my heart, It dulls the pain of days.
For one brief moment, heaven's view Appears before my gaze.
By Loren C. Dunn.
(Deseret News, Vol. 10, p. 306, October 14, 1860.) (Spencer W. Kimball, fireside address delivered in San Antonio, Texas, 3 Dec. 1977, 24–26).
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Don't you just love their little hands? They are like little people!
Friday, May 1, 2009
I got a new van today. It's for my dog walking business. Here's the down low: 2002 Chevy with 94,160 miles. Cost me $4200. I have a 48 month loan on it with a 5.49 interest rate. I haven't paid a penny on it yet and won't until June 10th. Weird that it's in my possession and that I drove it today. I'm keeping my Corolla for the good gas mileage, and have seriously lowered my insurance. Here 's the beaut!
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Friday, April 10, 2009
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Gregory had a melt down today. I took Justin, Heather and Gregory to the park. G did not want to go, but walked the path and sat under a tree for a few minutes. He started walking back to the car so I had to follow, leaving the other 2 at the play ground. He didn't want to just sit in the car, he wanted to drive away. I had to walk back to J and H to let them know and make a plan. Heather came back with me and got in the front seat. G was laying in the back seat crying and hitting his head. We got the car moving and he was still upset, opened the car door once, pushed my arm with his foot and then started to really kick Heather. She started to crouch down as far as she could to protect herself, but she got a big push just as we got home. This one hurt, but she ran our the door crying and into the house and moved the rat cage. She knows about these episodes and knew she needed to get them to safety. I didn't realize what she was doing. She needed a hug and some comforting. She absolutely did the right thing and I'm so glad she did. I headed up the stairs and it was wet. Why? I looked around and the fish bowl we'd only had for a few weeks was empty on the stairs! Where were the fish? Maybe there was time to save them. I looked around and found one on the marble floor looking like it was too late. I grabbed him anyway and ran him to the other fish bowl. He was OK. I yelled to Heather and she looked for the other one. He was on the stairs. She grabbed him and did the same thing. Another fish life was saved! 4 little lives were saved. Heather is a brave girl!
When I was looking for that fish I had a flash back to year 2 at Ricks. I kept fish in the blender my mom got for a wedding present. I used that for the first semester. On the buttons I put a sign that said: And you think you have stress in your life! We re-arranged our living room around quite a bit. The fish blender stood with the other electronics in the living room and one time when moving things around and plugging things in, the blender, not normally plugged in, got plugged in with out us knowing it. Our FHE brothers came in and one of them pushed the puree button and WIZZZZZZZZZ. There was no lid on, and the water became fish soup and we found one fish eye on the table. Of course 6 female voices screamed! He was for the rest of the year branded "the fish murder".
At Christmas time I got a globe fish tank. It was round and had the continents on it. The little fish could swim in their little world. This one came with air filter and such, so I could go up with quality of fish. I got a few different ones, but one of them was picking on the other and stredding his beautiful fins. I decided I needed to take the bad guy back to the pet store. I came home for lunch, put him in a clear picture of water. I had one class and then after that I'd take him back. I'd only be gone an hour. When I came back the picture was gone! Where was he? Where was the fish? I joked about it and looked in silly places like under the couch. Mandy one of my 5 roommates came home and I was telling her about it. She was the culprit this time. She saw this picture of water in the sink and didn't know why it was there, so just dumped it out. She didn't see the yellow fish. I reached in to the disposal and pulled him out. He didn't float! I guess it serves him right, the little bully!