Monday, November 28, 2011

My Heart and a Bishop

Remember this post? I realized latter that it was a loss, hence why the huge anger and tears. I lost a place to go for help, a possible supporter, a confidante, the Lords voice. I've always had that. Never had I felt like I did then about a bishop.

Today I went to see my new bishop. What a difference. He knew I needed to speak to him, before I even asked (it's not hard when you're crying all through sacrament mtg). He prayed before hand the most beautiful complete prayer. He listened, he asked questions, he spoke words of comfort. Oh I wanted to praise his name to the Lord, to praise the Lord.

He asked first about my childhood, what kind of family life I had. He asked about my mission. Elder Gardner came up. Turns out I did the right things. I wasn't as bad as I thought.

I told him about my marriage, about how things are now and about my finances. These are some of the things he said:

The Spirit tells me your a good person. I'm here as the Savior. I take that seriously. I'm here to help you get to happy again.

The Spirit tells me the Lord loves you. He knows exactly what you're going through. This is a trial, a trial of your faith.

Something that everyone else out there has experiences just like this, or a family member that has so close to this.

You'll be stronger because of this. You'll look back and understand why you had to go through this.

Maybe you're here to help me, or I'm here to help you.

You will have an opportunity in the future to marry again, I don't know when or with who, I haven't felt anything about that.

Let's talk some more.

Counseling may be something we can do.

Oh, what a difference! What a relief. I know I am in good hands. Really good hands.
I must of needed to move here for him! He had me end in prayer. I thanked the Lord for him.

Monday, November 21, 2011

OOOPPPPS! Car Crash!

Yep- I got in a car accident. It was really a fender bender. It was sort of my fault. The my fault part was staying to long on the internet Thursday morning after not having the internet for a month at my house, so I was anxious to get to my job FASTER, so I wouldn't be late. HAHA! I drive 42 miles to work. It's a straight shot most of the way through farm land, rocks and sage brush. There is usually no one on the street, but there was that morning.

Here you can see the bent bar above the radiator.
That bar goes around the whole square of the engine.

The someone else fault's was a car/truck 3 or 4 cars ahead of me stopping to turn, not just turn, but stopping, so all the drivers put on the breaks! I was going to fast, tried to miss the van ahead of me, especially the other head light that just got fixed two days previous! But it was the van or a ditch. I went for the van.

The lady in the other car insisted she call the cops. Oh- what a waste of time and money for me. She had never been in a car accident before. So I got a 85$ ticket. What good is calling the cops? Can anyone tell me.? I mean, we could of taken care of it ourselves with our insurance agencies. It was of no benefit to her and to me. ARRRGGGG! Her van only had a 5 in crack on the bumper that DID NOT go all the way through. It was superficial. But the car was a 2010, so they will replace it.
You might be able to tell that the FRAME was bent in the whole ordeal!
Ya- the frame- you know that part that everything else is built on top of.

Of course I didn't know that until I drove it to work after the accident. The cop asked me twice if I needed a tow. Even if I did I wouldn't of gotten on. I would of called some body and had them drag my car home. I can't afford a tow truck! I knew the car still worked and that I could take it to the shop teacher and the boys and they could tell me if they could help me fix it. They could do a few things. But that frame and bar was beyond their skills. The teacher gave me a recommendation for a fix it guy who specializes in frames. He priced it at 900 to do the whole thing. Not a bad price. I can't afford it, but it's cheaper than a car payment which I can't afford even more!

Like the duck tape job? That is curtsey of the HS shop kids.
Good idea I thought. The light does still work.

The fun part is on the way home, I got a speeding ticket for 85$ as well. Different cop, different town. I was in a school zone and going 20 miles over. My car was on empty and there was a gas station just a block away. The cop was nice and on the ticket didn't mention I was in a school zone and only put that I was only going 15 over. He saved me over a hundred dollars.
It was a nightmare day. Lots of tears.

oh ya, here's another piece of info- the engine is new, and the car is only worth 1772.00!